First off, it's kind of sad how long it has been since being on this blog. To be honest, something inside of me a long time ago just didn't want to do it anymore. I think it got too much. Too overdone. Too much of "more of this on my blog, link in profile" going on. Like blogging became a default for young married girls or mommies. I didn't want to be a default. I don't really care for doing what everyone else is doing! haha i'm such a butt like that. When things get on the band-wagon it like loses it's cool for me. BUT also with that, during pregnancy and having a baby I didn't even have time or the energy even if I wanted to! And I have wanted to. I miss my friends from blogging. I miss the sweet girls who would comment back and forth on my posts. I miss the way I was able to connect with, dare I say, kindred souls from around the world?! hahaha really though! I don't know why but I don't really have that kind of community on instagram. I did, but only for the first couple of months with Kai being born. Then it faded, maybe I just have become irrelevant or I don't post enough pictures of my son (jk, there were plenty) or maybe, and probably, i just am not ever really open and real as i was on here. It's so weird how many captions i'll write on a picture for insta but i'll delete them because 1: no one will get my sarcasm! i might offend somebody. 2: ahh man another religious quote??! no one will read this or 3: i don't think my followers asked for a novel on how my day as mother went. it's like i'm so concerned with others that i have lost my voice. and it makes me incredibly sad. because as you other momma's know, you lose parts of yourself when you do have a child. you lose your pre-preggy body, your time, some of your hobbies, most of your energy, and sometimes within all that you lose yourself! it's really is a battle everyday!
that's why i think it's so important to never lose your voice. through journaling, blogging, social media-ing (yeah that's a word) or whatever it is that you do to make you feel like yourself, keep doing it. always find time for it. because when you are taking care of yourself too, you really are being the best mother and wife for your loved ones.
about that california post.....
Laguna Beach is seriously our haven. We went there last year when I was pregnant and stayed with family. While we were there I laid in the sand almost everyday and watched vaughan in the ocean while little baby kai kicked in my belly. Even though I was born and raised in Utah, I've always had a sense of belonging to the beach. I think it's more than fate that I ended up marrying an island boy who feels the same way. Our dreams are to be able to live in New Zealand one day soon, so that our kids can have the same experiences vaughan had living there. And also, with my kids being half polynesian, i think it's extremely important that they have a strong feel for their culture. Orem is a lot of things that I love but I don't know if it has everything that I want for them. If only we could have a million dollars to have two homes and endless sky miles so we could just fly back and forth! Kai is already such a beach baby. We would put him down in the sand and he would crawl like 20-30 feet away from us and just play by himself hahaha he looked like a little sand turtle. Was a little afraid of the ocean but would put his feet in from time to time.
Anyway, not that we're locals or anything BUT from the week we were there our favorite places to eat in Laguna are Active Culture (the yummy acai bowl and wellness bowl), La Sirena (Mexican food), BJ's Pizza, Greeters (for Breakfast), Nicks and Johnny Rockets! We just stay on the main beach most days but we went up to Thalia and loved it there for bigger waves. Also, the Pacific Edge Hotel was money! We ended having to stay there for a couple days and I wish we would have done it sooner! Steps from the beach, right on the main road of Laguna with a Ralphs Grocery Store right across the street. There is also a Taco Bell next door in case that is a game changer for you.
We miss it already. Most trips we can't wait to get home towards the end but with this it felt like we were leaving a little part of us there.